A Moment in My Life – Monday, May 3, 2021
“It is what it is,” rolls off my tongue a lot lately as I accept how little control I have over situations. Growing up, I recited The Serenity Prayer that goes like this: God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. I admit that I felt like a hypocrite for reciting those words without living them, not until recently. I’m a firm believer that timing is everything. The truth is, the timing wasn’t right for me until now. Now, it all makes sense that life is what it is. For most incidents, there is nothing that we can do to change the outcomes. We can, however, control our outlook.
The sun will rise, and the sun will set. I have no control over whether the sun will make an appearance for my photoshoot or not. There are days when it doesn’t, and it is what it is. I make do with a backup plan to capture another one of God’s masterpieces that I might have overlooked while focusing on the sun. That’s the beauty of life. There’s much ado around us, but we usually tend to focus on a small piece of it. Speaking for myself, that is. One of my former coworkers nicknamed me, Blinders for a reason. I don’t take it derogatorily. There is truth in his assessment of me. I pride myself on being an achiever, and you don’t earn that title without being focused. The bad part is that I sometimes miss the bigger picture. Things often happen to redirect our focus and open our eyes to new inspiration, a solution to a problem, or revelation that we’re on the right or wrong path, which everyone can appreciate checkpoints at one time or another.
Checkpoints are good. It keeps me grounded and moving forward. It is a great way to reassess if plans are meeting or missing the mark. One of these checkpoints revealed to me that I’ve evolved from who I was eons ago. I think it might have something to do with the residual Prednisone side effect that plagued me for the last month. My side effect was having my emotions turned down low to the point that I didn’t care about things that once mattered, like meeting deadlines. My discipline to never miss a deadline has excelled me throughout my career. Once, I didn’t care about a deadline; I knew something was wrong even if I couldn’t control it. Lately, I’m slowly returning to my old self as I have resumed meeting my deadlines.
That’s not the revelation that I want to share. This Saturday at 10 p.m., I received some news that would have freaked me out in the past, and I would have spent the whole night worrying about it. Instead, this time, to my surprise, I didn’t lose sleep over it, but I did have trouble falling asleep even with two MidNite sleep-aid tablets. There is nothing that I can do to change the outcome of this situation, which is a bit too personal to share, but it will have a significant impact on my life. At this checkpoint is how I learned that I have evolved, and the timing is perfect because it is what it is, and worrying or freaking out won’t make it better or change anything except stress me out more, which would make the situation worst.
I’m facing my trial with my eyes on God because everything is His. He promises not to forsake me or give me more than I can handle. He promises that if He brings it to me, He will see me through it. I have faith in my God that He will do as He promises. My burden may be heavy at the moment, but I know I will be okay as long as I keep my eyes on Him.
Bible says that the rain will fall for the just and the unjust. Life will happen. Some won’t be pleasant. We can’t escape it, but we can adjust our outlook on life, and that will make any gloomy day a sunshiney one, and it doesn’t matter if it is what it is.