A Moment in My Life – Wednesday, October 21, 2020
I think I’m taking hump day a little too seriously for my own good. I like it, though. Taking it easy. Not a care in the world. Feels good. Feels really good. If not for the late start to my writing day by almost two hours, I have no problem with this laidback feeling. I entered my workday with no idea what I’m writing for my column today, either. Did I fret? Nope. I am completely relaxed—not nervous, not worried, not concerned that I had no clue what I’m writing today. My norm is typically hyper, racing from task-to-task, worrying about getting things done. Before I get out of bed, I’d be freaking out if I didn’t already know what I’m going to write. Today’s carefree demeanor is surprising. Who am I, and what did I do with the real me?
I suspect it’s because I caught up with my sleep, and I have maintained a good night’s rest. We’ve been having Indian Summer and gorgeous summery days in the middle of October, and that probably has a lot to do with it. I’m in summer mode! I’m a summer baby, and this summer failed to be summer-like. We had too many wintry days with only a few sprinklings of warm ones. It was depressing. However, the cost of these gorgeous days in my area meant fires in other areas. I am soaking it up for what it’s worth. After all, there’s nothing I can do about any of it except enjoy it.
Honestly, there was nothing to worry about. Once I started my workday, this column was born, and voila, I have my writing for today. I love it when a plan comes together, even if I didn’t have a plan, to begin with.
It would be nice to have a better balance between my two sides, though, and that may happen. I’m sure this is the stepping stone towards that balance that I’m hoping for. At the moment, I want to be more productive, but I lack the desire. I started my week with a NaNoWriMo Preptober planned to get my outline done before I begin writing my novel on November 1st. I have two weeks to create my outline and flesh out everything—characters, plot, conflict, location, names, places, and yadda, yadda. Here it is Wednesday, and what have I checked off the task list? Create storyboard in Trello, checked. Good thing, I’ve done the brainstorming and have a working title, story idea, the main characters, and some sub-characters, as well as a roadmap, jotted down. I’m further along than I’ve ever been, and that is encouraging. The hard work is not over yet. I want to get the full outline down and every little detail that I can flesh out before November 1st. The way I’m feeling at the moment? I’m not worried. I’ll get it done in time.
It was a long road here for the new me. I honestly thought that being a nervous wreck was my modus operandi. I wouldn’t mind getting the job done while going where the breeze takes me as I live a little. I’m glad it’s not too late for me. I think I finally know what it means to stop and smell the roses because mastering balance makes perfect.