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“I Know I’m Not Alone”

A Moment in My Life – Friday, August 28, 2020

I did my best to ignore the unimpressive grey and gloomy day that has attempted all week to get my attention, but it wasn’t doing a good job. It was oblivious to what piques my fancy. It finally got it when the looming gloom humbly slipped away as the stunning sunshine waltzed in. In one gigantic stretch, the sun warmed the earth, and my demeanor, with its rays, and I looked up and smiled. 

I felt energized, and for the time since Shelter in Place began, I wanted to go out and do something. Do anything! Go somewhere. Go anywhere! I wanted to meet up with someone and banter for hours as we enjoy a yummy meal in a restaurant as we did before Shelter in Place. I know I’m not alone. Others have gone down this path as early as weeks after quarantine began, I am now, five months later. Better late than never, I suppose. 

I took advantage of the quarantine time by maximizing my productivity. Being a hermit was the only way to scratch the surface. I still have a lot of work to do, which surprised me when I got this desire to have fun. I shouldn’t be surprised because socializing was an essential part of my life. I expected, at some point, I would miss living life. When I got the urge to go out and live again, I was stumped as I checked off my options list. Where to go? Nowhere. Who to go with? Nobody. What to do? Nothing. What a damper that was! The world is not the same now, crave all I want, and it won’t change the fickle new norm. Instead, I nestled up with my MacBook and got back to writing. 

Living as close to the coast as I do, seasonal overcast is no surprise. I could drive down south a few miles and steal some sunshine, which I know I’ll run into by the time I reach San Bruno. It amazes me when I’m driving along, and as different as day and night, the gloom and chill vanishes, and it’s sunny and warm. It’s as if I went through an invisible curtain.  

I’m glad that I haven’t acclimated to being a hermit so much that I’ve become a recluse.  I’m happy that I do desire to go back out into the world and live again. Although I can’t quite do that yet, I am determined to go out today and venture past that invisible curtain and steal a pocket of sunshine for myself. I don’t have to do anything or be with anybody, for now, but I will enjoy some sunshine. I know I’m not alone in feeling this way. We are, after all, in this together.

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