It’s hard to imagine that today, December 17, 2019, is Mark’s, aka Globfly’s, first anniversary of his last day on this earth with us, and the first day he became a new citizen in heaven. As far as I am concerned, it was just yesterday because time temporarily stood still for me the moment he gasped his last breath, rendering our life together, as we knew it, a closed chapter. That storyline may have ended, but the rest of the story remains to be told with life waiting to be lived and dreams and goals we both had waiting to be fulfilled just not the way that Globfly and I had dreamed, but alas, they still need to be achieved even if that means, me going it alone.
I won’t lie and say that everything is hunky-dory because it’s not, but I’ve done what I could to make do with the cards that I’ve been dealt. I’ve been able to put an optimistic spin on every situation because every day I get to wake up and do it all again is a gift from God even if I am all alone and missing the love of my life. When some people see me, they are surprised to see me happy and peppy.
Well, life goes on regardless of what attitude I choose to live with, right? With that said, there are moments in my days when something, usually a memory, sets me off, and I end up crying my eyes out, and that’s okay. It’s all a part of grieving. What I noticed was the 17th of each month was the most difficult to hold back the tears, so I decided to change that up. Globfly wanted a celebration of his life, not an all-dressed-in-black dark and wet with tears affair, so I decided I would do something to honor his memory on the 17th of each month, and what better way to do that then to have one of his favorite foods on that day.
Food made him happy. Food makes everybody happy. Planning and preparing the monthly food choice gave me purpose. Sharing it with others, even if just as a post on Facebook, has brought cheers to many. One month, we also had a couple of friends join me in enjoying the treat of the month. That made my heart sing, and I know Globfly was enjoying the moment while sitting on his favorite cloud and watching and listening to our banter.
Today, I honor Globfly’s memory with his all-time favorite cookie, the Snickerdoodle. When Globfly and I were dating, this was the first cookie that he shared with me; therefore, I think this cookie is the perfect choice to honor his first Angelversary with.